October 27 - Honesty

Honesty is the word today so don't ask me if what you're wearing makes you look fat. I might have to lie. Of course, it's self-honesty I need to concern myself with. Like, is taking a drink really the best solution to my problem or is it just going to create more problems. And no, I don't even see that as an option. If I manage to stay sober one more month I'll have 22 years. Why would I stay sober that long only to throw it all away? I've seen it happen to others. I remember putting on a meeting in detox, and there was a fellow who had just celebrated 20 years, sitting on a bed with his head down, confused, probably trying to figure out how he wound up here.He believed the lie, that all that time away from liquor had somehow made him immune to alcohol. It's called alcoholism not alcoholwasm. All this time, my disease has been in the parking lot, doing pushups, waiting for me to let down my guard. Not today, Ray.