September 15, 2025 - Open Minded

 I was raised as an Anglican. I went to Sunday School. I practiced the Ten Commandments. When I was in my teens, I joined a street gang, so I stopped going to church. By the time I got to AA, I didn't believe in God, I didn't want to believe in God and I didn't care if you believed in God as long as you did your believing someplace else. My sponsor suggested I try acting as if. He said just go through your day acting as if there was a god. If, when you get to the end of your life, you find out there isn't a God, then all you will have done wrong is live a good life and how wrong is that, really. He then said that if I go through acting as if there isn't a God and I get to the end and find out that there is a god, then I'll be in deep kaka. My sponsor suggested that I try to keep an open mind where spiritual concepts are concerned and that I didn't have to believe in what he believed in because it wasn't God as He understood Him, it was god as I understood him. Admittedly, that was a new concept for me. So, in the beginning my understanding of God was flimsy. It's true that I eventually went back to being Anglican, but I did that as a choice. Nobody forced me to do that. I just became open minded enough to accept that God as being my God.